It is never easy …
To accept our own mistakes is never easy but it is a good start. There is only so much we can do on our own. No matter how good we r in what we do, the work we do with others is always stronger and better. One arrow can be easily broken but a bunch of them is strong and not so easy to break. Sometimes we get to involve in our jobs that we forget the little things and when we think we r doing the right thing we might be causing harm to others. Perfection is one quality no one posses except only God. I am a perfectionist and for that i always make trouble. That is my best and yet worst quality. Trying to be good at what I do is always my goal. I dislike failure and it is one thing i hate to admit. For many years now I have been a coach and i have always manage to shine in my work. It is now that I realize that in the proses i have cause a lot of shame and pain to some people and for that I now feel so depress.I love my job and specially my students they r the best thing. I see them as my own my beautiful children I am so proud of some of their achievements and i love them so much. Some of them r so loving ,some r so shy but in all , they r so good kids.
Someone talked to me just recently and told me what she saw in me when i am coaching and i was ashamed for I realized that i have been nasty at many times when i look for perfect routines and good elegant steps. Now i will try to show not so perfect routines but more happy and relax ones . I love my job and my kids and i will do my best to still be the best but not sooooo perfect . It is OK not to be perfect sometimes. Thank u my friend for being honest to tell me what others wouldn’t. If anyone reading this finds that u r a perfectionist like me - well RELAX for a while breath and then continue - it makes the job a lot easier.
Abby i miss u . U always helped me control my emotions and u were there to tell me when i was wrong .
Neny thank u for letting me know ahead of time but u fail to stop me . Try harder next time . I hope there won’t be a next time .
LOVE u both . The fact is that it is in my blood it comes from generations back. I need to make the change now.
